Cold Hands

Back in Blagoevgrad.
Back in Class.
Back in Business.

If you ever go to Istanbul, be prepared. Prepared to spend money. All the little shops had beautiful things, beautiful little keepsakes and perfect presents. I liked Istanbul, but it wasn't stunning to me.

I did get to celebrate Halloween in Istanbul though, how many people do I know can say that? I was a "workout girl" due to lack of costume and trying to be creative. Everyone said I looked like someone from the Call on Me video even though I was totally wearing clothes haha. I enjoyed the night and the weekend and the girls I was with. On the bus back I met some kids and we were practicing my Bulgarian at 4 a.m. because they knew little English and I know little Bulgarian.

It reached freezing a couple of nights ago. It's cold in the morning, nice for about 3 hours in the day and then freezing at night, mountain life. I would like to maybe live in North Carolina or Colorado at some point. I enjoy this scenery.

Struggle. Being a Christian is a struggle. Being a student is a struggle. Not being in a familiar environment is a struggle. I love this experience and what God is showing me, but it isn't easy. I'm 20 and only lived a quarter of my life. To sit and think of how much more life I have to live is just crazy! I have so much more to experience and learn.

Recently, I heard about the site Total Frat Move and I started reading. It's sad to read, the fact that it's okay to treat girls like that and the girls don't mind and wear it proudly, the term "sorostitute". Apparel, money, cars, houses, etc. are everything on that site. Sometimes I take a step back and realize what world I'm in and man, I've really got to keep myself from being depressed or something. I pray that God makes my heart bigger for the people who don't know Christ, but sometimes it's too hard. Luckily, I know that it's not in my hands, but in His hands and what a burden I have released from me.

This post is rather scatterbrained in my opinion, but I'm having a rather scatterbrained day.

This is old news, but NEEDTOBREATHE and Lecrae released some pretty awesome albums recently. Go. Listen.