I started really praying last night about all these things. I see this as an opportunity to really lay my worries before God. One time I heard a woman say, "Look at your hands and see how small they are and what little you can do with them. Now, imagine God's hands and how big they are. He can take care of things much better than you or I can." Constantly I think of this wonderful picture. This may be one of the biggest things I still struggle with in my walk with God. The ability to put full trust in my almighty God to take care of things, the ability to back up and say that I truly can't do it on my own, because really, I can't.
On Tuesday we went to the city of Ephesus. It is so intact compared to some others ruins I've seen within the past couple of months. Paul really wanted to reach the people of Ephesus and after a couple of failed attempts he finally spends two years preaching to the people. I was where Paul sent a letter that is now in the Bible, to really stand back and think about that, is just..... wow. Besides the Biblical importance to me, I just can't get over how beautiful this city or any ancient city must have been. These buildings are just massive, decorated, and made of heavy marble. It makes realize how cheap we are, making things out of wood and concrete, I mean....... come on!
The thing that is consuming my mind the most is plans for next summer. I'm a planner and even though it's October, I still want to know what may be in store for next summer. I applied and interviewed for a job at a summer camp that I went to in high school and have been trying to work at for the past few summers, but it just hasn't been in God's plan. So, I got the job! Which is great news, but I'm not quite convinced I'm supposed to be there this summer. I'm praying a lot, so we'll see. The other option that I've decided to open the door for is an internship. I should be doing an internship, but this wouldn't be a typical internship because it involves two things I really enjoy doing. Journalism and pursuing God's purpose. There are a lot of missions organizations out there and most of the time, newsletters are being put together or other means of communication. I've emailed about nine organizations about the possibility of this, I've gotten 5 responses in 1 day. For this, I would have to raise support and move to a different place for the whole summer. It sounds like a good deal to me, but what does He want me to do. This will be eating at me for quite some time, so prayers are appreciated for my confusing summer opportunity and which to take.
I must be diligent today. I must be productive today. This is the theme for the day.
No comments:
Post a Comment